Am I getting enough sleep?

Do I get enough sleep? I don't know if the 8-hour paradigm is relevant anymore. It makes me sad to think that instead of days being split into three equal parts, that sleep has to suffer the cuts. I usually find it hard to balance work, free time, socializing, etc., so I will compromise my sleeping schedule to have more time to fit the rest of my life in.

I think on average, I'm getting about six hours of rest each night. Has this become the norm though? It feels that way to me. We're all running around trying to find time in the day but, we're doing it with baggy eyes and slumping shoulders. Or maybe, you're not so tired throughout the day because you're used to having less sleep (which is a troublesome thought to me). Maybe it's specific to certain people's lives. I'm not sure so I'm asking: How does everyone else sleep? Do you think the norm has shifted?

Start a 2 week workout regime?

One of my friends just offered to train me for a couple of weeks in yoga, meditation, and HIIT. He would make a diet plan as well as a daily schedule for my work outs. I love working out and feel pretty in shape, and I don't really like to be told when and when not to exercise. Then again, I've never done something like this before. I don't know whether I should give it a shot or not.

Should I get a tattoo?

What are your thoughts on tattoos? I don't have any, but I really want one. I'm currently traveling and have an idea of what I would get, as it would be a memory from my trip. However, I'm afraid that one day I'll grow bored of it and want to change it. But I think it's worth the risk!

How's your New Year's Resolution coming along?

It's just about two weeks into the new year and I'm guessing that many of us made New Year's Resolutions. Whether it be losing some weight, trying to be nicer to people, or achieving that goal we've always wanted, every year brings with it hope that we can always do better for ourselves.

But, at any rate, I'm curious as to how many people actually stick with it, if only just two weeks in. Are any of you still going strong right now? Have any of you actually kept your resolutions the whole year or even more before? I just feel that many people just talk the talk but never actually walk the walk.

So far I'm doing well. How's yours going?

Life is Precious

My buddy is only 39 and he had a heart attack, open heart surgery and the whole deal. He was that close to dying because he did not go to the hospital until 3 days later. Screwed my head up real bad. How often do you get your heart and blood pressure checked?

Cut back on coffee?

I'm a pretty big coffee drinker- I just love the stuff! I only have 1 or 2 cups a day (sometimes 3), but some people would still say that's a lot. I feel great when I drink coffee, but I do feel it when I don't drink any. Would you say that I should cut back on it to the occasional cup, or keep on drinkin'?

Streaming on Social Platforms

I have been streaming on social gaming platforms such as Twitch(, YouTube, & Mixer(Beam) for quite sometime(7 years) & have been feeling it's all been for nothing. While doing so streaming has brought me out of my shell quite a bit but the subjection to the constant harassment is starting to take it's toll. I only ask this because I don't know if I am just harming myself mentally or if this is just another hurdle of Learning to deal with others emotions that seems to come in waves around holidays and other stressful parts of the year.

Should I get healthcare?

Yep. I'm opening up this can of worms.

If you're from the U.S., then you know how controversial this subject is. For those who don't know, Americans are required by law to have health insurance BUT are not provided so by the government. In essence, you are forced to pay for an optional service. Imagine if the same were true for something like Netflix? Would you have a problem with the government forcing you to pay for Netflix? It's ironic, really. There are lots of freedoms granted in this country but when it comes to health, I don't get a say in anything. It's either get insurance or pay a fine. And, I'll say it. Insurance is completely unnecessary. Its purpose is to save people from losing all their hard earned money in an emergency/life-threatening situation. But does someone like Bill Gates have to worry about a measly $300,000 for cancer treatment? No, so why should he be forced to pay for a service he doesn't need?

And, yes, I see its value for the common citizen who doesn't have billions gushing from their checking account. But, then you have people like me; healthy by choice and by youth, who's only real worries come in fiscal form. And that's what gets me. I know, I'm not immune to being hit by a bus, but if I had to weigh my fears of surviving being run over or how I'm going to pay rent next month or feed myself/family (respectfully), I'm picking the latter. That IS my health; my day-to-day existence only kept proper by how I decide to spend what I make, not what uncertainty may lie ahead. So, now if I have the burden of coughing up an extra living expense, that would ironically have an effect on the very thing it's trying to help, how do I prioritize what is important? That's all I'm asking. I'm not even going to begin to talk about the implicit flaw in having multiple health plans, where what you pay for doesn't even work (ya know, get hit hit by a bus, only covers cars). So, what do I do? Do I hurt myself financially or risk the every-day fickle world we live in (fines included)? Do I bother getting health insurance or risk it?

P.S. If the NSA is reading this, feel free to comment.

Best Way to Start Being Kind to Myself

I transferred colleges about three-and-a-half years ago, moved an hour-and-a-half away from my home town, and pursued better educational aspirations. I love this university, but since then, I've noticed my self-esteem steadily declining - and now that I'm a senior, I've noticed that it has hit rock bottom. It happened so gradually that I didn't notice it was happening until I was completely miserable.

A few things I attribute to this is the loss of my friends from my hometown, my isolation in this new town, the loss of a two-year romantic relationship, and the general atmosphere in this new university - by which I mean everyone is very successful, young, has more accomplishments, and don't have a chronic illness like I do. Students are able to make friends, study abroad, and experience the full university spectrum while I'm dealing with illness and worrying about bills. I'm also the oldest person in my classes - something that I never experienced before I transferred.

So now that I've pinpointed all of these things that are crushing my self-esteem, I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm a little overwhelmed on where to start fixing my outlook on things. Does anyone have experience with this swift loss of self-esteem/self-confidence? I would like to finish out my last semester on a good note, but where do I start improving?

Getting into yoga

I've wanted to try to get into yoga for a very long time. Every time I do one video, I'll feel great and then wait 4 days before I decide to do another one, and before I know it, 4 months have passed. I've recently been trying to do videos every single day, but I'm wondering if buying a 10 class pass instead will help me get into it more. It'll force me to get up and go instead of doing it in my own home. However, the classes are expensive, about $20 per class.